Jan 28, 2025
When energy starts to flow again
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Sometimes we feel stuck and demotivated in life and instead of stopping for a moment and checking in with ourselves, we continue pushing through. But the more we push, the worse it becomes.
On the other hand, when we pause for a moment and take a break from all the activities we think we need to do, emotions may naturally start to rise… And we may realize that we have been carrying A LOT… without processing it. And that's why we feel exhausted, heavy or blocked…
Somatic healing is beautiful because all what we need to get started with it is a safe undisturbed space, the loving presence of someone (could be ourselves or a facilitator) and unfiltered honesty paired with nervous system capacity to allow anything what's there to come to the surface. If these conditions are fulfilled, it can result in emotional release, trauma healing and the removal of energetical blockages.
Something like this happened to me lately. I was pushing through and as the days went by, I started to feel more exhausted, uninspired and dissatisfied.
One day, I felt really heavy and restless. I had the evening free so I decided it was time to gift myself a somatic energy alignment session.. I do energy healing sessions not just on clients, but on myself too.
I've realized I've gone a long time without really checking in with myself and noticing where my energy was blocked. Usually I give myself a somatic alignment session every two - three weeks but somehow two months passed without it this time.
So I finally decided it was time. I would say my body is quite open and it has its own intelligence - as all of our bodies do. Before a session, it usually shows me which areas need my attention in the form of some pain or discomfort. This time it was my spleen, liver and heart.
The spleen... when imbalanced, the mind gets restless, thoughts are racing.
The liver... where anger is stored.
And the heart... not much explanation needed. When the heart is heavy, there is loads of sadness and grief to process and release.
So I did the session and a lot of heaviness left my body. Tears too... I felt lighter after.
It was late evening, already dark outside. Once I finished the session and was lying in my bed integrating, a thunderstorm started outside with heavy rain. What a beautiful interplay of the internal and external world. Rain after weeks of dryness… tears after weeks of ignoring my grief…
The next morning, I received a 1:1 Body Belief session. It was not planned - it was again the interplay of forces in a favorable way. It had to happen and so it did. And oh, what a beautiful session it was!
It made me realize how much grief and sadness I've been still carrying because of the loss of someone dear. And like a heavy cloud, all this sadness has been blocking my energy, my vitality.
Grief has 5 stages: shock - anger - bargaining (what ifs..) - depression - acceptance. I realized I've been pendulating between anger, what ifs and deep sadness... not finding my way towards acceptance.
This Body Belief session helped me closer to accepting what is. And honoring it. Saying words of goodbye to this dear person. Freeing myself from the guilt. It's incredible how the mind can create scenarios to make us feel guilty even when we have nothing to do with something. And this happens almost all the time when we process grief. Grief healing is a tough one because it's almost always intertwined with some amount of guilt. And guilt is one of the lowest frequency emotions. But this guilt often stems from "what if" scenarios. "If I just knew…" or "if I just did that differently". It's all the creation of a mind that is not yet ready to accept what is.
I heard there is an Ayurvedic saying: "A thousand arrows will avoid the one who is meant to live, but not even a single medicine can save the one who is destined to die." And I can tell you one thing: someone else's destiny is out of your control. Therefore any amount of guilt is unnecessary. But I know, it's easy to say this and it's a whole different story to let go of it.
A key aspect of the Body Belief method is to accept what is. To accept where you are. The good, the bad and the ugly. To accept if you feel guilty. To accept if you feel angry. It's all fine. Emotions are part of the healing journey. It’s also okay to process things slowly. Just be honest with yourself about it. Awareness and honesty are essential - otherwise, we deny ourselves the opportunity to truly heal.
After two days of somatic sessions, I was ready for another experience. An energy cleansing ceremony in nature with mapacho tobacco. This session was scheduled months ago, however for various reasons, it got postponed several times. Now I understood why. I was not yet ready at the time. These two somatic healing sessions had to happen to open deeper layers before I entered the ceremony.
This is the beauty of a healing journey - that it all comes in layers and different modalities have slightly different approaches. By having two healing sessions before, I prepared my energy field for an even deeper layer of release.
My energy cleansing ceremony was taking place in beautiful nature. My facilitator created the ceremony space under a magnificent tree. When I entered our sacred space, I felt like stepping into another realm where we were hidden and protected.
It was a two hours long ceremony. I came with intentions - to get my vitality back and to release more of the grief I was experiencing. I was hoping that returning to my vital life force energy would also bring me more alignment in business.
I was touched by this ceremony. So much of nature was involved. The tree embracing us, the birds chirping and flying around the branches. The cleansing with herbs - with sage, lemongrass water, palo santo, mapacho. My bare feet touching the wet soil after a night of rain. Feeling the cold of the earth touching my body. Then later sitting within a triangle of candles, feeling the fire warming me up from all sides. Having those shivers as the warmth was touching my body and the cold was leaving me in waves. I received nature. I was nature.
In everyday life, we are disconnected from nature - even when we wander in the forest every day, the truth is that we live among walls, we don't live as our nomadic ancestors used to live. And while this has its benefits, it also sustains an illusion of separation from nature. Maybe that's why during this ceremony, several times I was fighting some inner battles in order to be able to let go of the physical discomfort I sometimes felt.
I was battling with the cold I felt in my bare feet and hands touching the wet soil. I was battling staying in certain positions for too long. This all reminded me of my Bufo ceremony where my feet were ice cold and my toes felt frozen by sunrise. "Why it always has to be like this? Why can't I just enjoy any ceremony without all this physical discomfort?" - my ego was throwing a tantrum. It was interesting to observe how my ego felt threatened by the slightest discomfort, creating this annoying chatter in the background. It took me some time to silence it and surrender. But in the end, I succeeded. I allowed the discomfort to be there as part of the process. I accepted it and with that, I embraced nature and trusted the unfolding of the ceremony.
Since my somatic alignment training and then my Wachuma and Bufo ceremony one year ago, I've experienced what many call "Kundalini awakening". For about 4 months, I had frequent episodes when I felt my Kundalini energy rising, usually resulting in heavy shaking, trance-like states and beyond ordinary experiences. Therefore, I was used to feeling my energy moving upwards. However, during my energy cleansing ceremony, the facilitator was moving my energy downwards - with firm touch, sweeping techniques and pulling of the fingers and toes. I could feel something leaving my body - the remaining heaviness was gone, the knots in my arms and thighs were dissolving and the whole experience felt incredibly grounding.
This experience was another proof for me that sometimes it's not activation what we need. When we are overly activated, we need regulation and grounding.
After the energy cleansing, I had the chance to ask my questions and receive guidance in the form of oracle card messages. One of the cards I picked was the horse spirit energy - a reminder that we have free will in every moment of our life to decide however we want to. This was a beautiful reminder of a previous Body Belief session I received - when my Inner Child asked me: "Don't you see how much freedom you have? As a child, I didn't have all this freedom. You are free now, you can do whatever you want in any moment of your life".
I also received some guidance on how to lead my business. "Focus on the next task, don't allow distractions. When the arrow is focused on one point, if it gets distracted, it will miss the target." - said one of the cards - "You can only achieve what you truly want when your own cup is full first. Put yourself first, so you have the energy and clarity to create the life you desire."
Wow. This was really on point. And it continued:
"Sometimes things don’t go the way we planned - and that’s okay. Mastery lies in how we respond and what we learn from the experience. Always know your why. And sometimes pause to see if you still want to continue in the same direction or you maybe want to take a new path."
I was grateful for these messages. After two hours spent under this magnificent tree and immersed in the scent of herbs, I felt tuned into a higher frequency. I felt immense love and gratitude. And it was time to leave.
At first, I was overwhelmed finding my ways in the city again - the traffic, the noise, the people, the separation from nature again… I decided to visit a coffeeshop to have a bite to eat. However, when I entered a place, I realized that the people and the noise were too much for me. I was longing for that peace that I had under the tree.
And as I left the coffeeshop, I suddenly saw a door leading to a basement just around the corner. It was a vegetarian place. Opening hours: 11.11 - 22.22 - said the sign on the door. "This looks interesting" - I thought and I decided to look inside.
I was the first guest of the day. They just opened. As I went inside, a labrador retriever came towards me. As I got to know later, the place was named after him. How cute!
"It's our first anniversary today, we opened this place one year ago on this day" - the owner said - "Would you like a cup of ceremonial cacao as a welcome drink?" And they gifted me a cup of cacao as a birthday celebration present.
As I entered the room inside, I was mesmerized. It was a barefoot place with cushions on the floor and beautiful wooden decoration everywhere. Exactly the place I wished for after the ceremony! Calm, cozy, quiet, the wooden decoration bringing nature back to me and a dog enjoying my company... Could I wish for more?
How I ended up at this place was again a proof for me that we can manifest whatever we want to, with an incredible speed - when we are tuned into a higher frequency. When the energetical blocks are released from the body, the world organizes itself in a different way around us. Our dreams get closer, new doors open up, new opportunities appear and we suddenly find ourselves in our desired reality. This is the magic of body-based healing.
Three days. Three healing sessions. Different methods, but one thing connects them: they clear energy flow. And with that, they increase life force and vitality.
I feel rebirthed. I feel that something heavy has been lifted from my chest. I've reconnected with my inner peace. And this is the biggest gift someone can have. Inner peace.
I hope you enjoyed reading my sharing. Thank you for staying until the end.
If you would like to book a Somatic Energy Alignment or Body Belief session with me or just chat about these methods without any commitment, feel free to message me.
If you would like to harvest the benefits of both methods, I offer combined Somatic Immersion sessions too. It would be my honor to guide you on this journey.
I hope my summary gave you some new insights or inspiration.
I wish you a magical day.
Much love,
Ashi
