
Jan 28, 2025
A Diary of Healing: Excerpts from Somatic Alignment Sessions
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3 – My weight is not tied to my worth
Another powerful realization was about self-love.
For most of my life, I tied my worth to my weight. During the session, I saw how deeply this belief had shaped me – and I understood that I am beautiful no matter what I weigh.
I also noticed how often I’m hard on myself. The negative self-talk, the self-sabotage – it’s been so constant that I barely noticed it anymore. Becoming aware of it was painful, but it gave me a chance to start shifting it. Since then, I’ve started to talk to myself the way a loving grandmother would talk to her grandchild – with care, unconditional love and patience.
4 – Reconnecting with my reindeer
At one point, we sat on the ground facing each other. The practitioner guided me through a visualization where she asked me to imagine my safe place and then describe it to her in one word.
As I closed my eyes, what appeared was an image I hadn’t connected to in almost a decade – the reindeer I used to see during savasana at the end of my yoga practice when I first started yoga about eight years ago.
Back then, the reindeer would always appear and guide me deeper into the forest, and I knew I was safe as long as I followed him.
When the practitioner asked me to describe how this visualization made me feel, my word was protected.
I cried as I said it out loud.
It was such a beautiful, emotional moment – like reconnecting with a part of myself I had completely forgotten.

5 – The importance of silence
Another surprising realization came up later: my habit of talking too much.
I’ve been using words to avoid fully feeling my emotions. By constantly giving everything a story or a narrative, I’ve been distracting myself from the actual feelings.
What I need most right now isn’t more talking – it’s silence.
Sitting quietly with myself.
Letting emotions move through me without immediately trying to put them into words or share them with others.
This is where I can truly meet myself.
6 – All my names
As different memories came up, I reflected on all the names I’ve been called throughout my life. Each name carried its own history and emotion. What a whirlwind of feelings!
It made me see how my names have been tied to different identities. Talking about this with my guide helped me understand why it’s been a source of confusion for me and gave me more clarity.
7 – Trusting my path again
In the weeks before the session, I had been feeling confused.
I let other people’s fears, doubts and opinions get into my head, and it started to shake my trust in myself and my spiritual path.
During the session, that all shifted.
I felt deeply connected to my own truth again.
The opinions of others didn’t feel as heavy anymore. I could finally see my own path clearly without needing anyone else’s approval.

8 – Feeling safe and loved
One of the most healing parts of the session was realizing that I could receive unconditional love outside of a romantic relationship.
Before, I believed that this kind of love – being deeply held and supported – could only come from a partner. But in this session, through the guide’s presence and care, I felt completely safe to let go.
I felt loved without any condition. Just in my pure presence. It touched me deeply.
9 – Realizing a lifetime of shoulder tension
In the days and weeks that followed the sessions, I noticed clear shifts:
I feel more accepting and less judgmental of others.
It’s easier to experience unconditional love.
My breathing is deeper.
I became aware of how tense my shoulders have been – something I hadn’t really noticed before even though physiotherapists had mentioned it for years. Now I catch my elevated shoulders several times a day and consciously relax them. It’s such a relief!
Closing reflections
You never know what unfolds during a session.
As you can see from these excerpts, I reconnected with forgotten parts of myself and gained a deeper sense of self-love and trust in my path.
As a practitioner, it reminded me why it’s so important to keep doing my own work with compassion.
I’m deeply grateful – for the safe space I was given, for the guidance I received and for the healing that continues to unfold in my daily life.
Thank you for being here! I hope you gained a better understanding of what Somatic Alignment can do.
Much love,
Adri


